Hisashiburi~!!

Haven't written for a while. I hope people are still reading my blog...

The reason I was away for a while is because my life has changed a lot recently.
In a good way, so don't worry. But still same job...
I remember writing here a few month ago that I'm thinking to quit my job. I still have that feeling and I was waiting for the right chance. Well, I think now is the time now.

My company was ranked 4th in one of the recruiting company's top 100 ranking and 1st among male new graduates. Human resourse said we have 3 times more applicants than last year. Wow, I was surprised to hear this.
You can't believe how good my company's welfare program is. Depends on which department you belong but in my case, I can get holidays almost anytime I want (I took 2 days off this month), no overwork except the busiest time. If I had to do overtime, I get paid 100% ( not like many Japanese who have to do "non-paid over time" ) I would never want to work for free. I also have long GW, summer and winter vacation (compared to other jp companies).

So lucky, huh? Too good to quit. I know, I know...
This makes me to hold back a little bit but I don't think I will regret. Because I'm not enjoying my job! It's not because I can't do it or I hate it. It's not the thing I want to do. I still don't know what exactly I wanna do but I can tell you this is not it. Completely the opposite.

I know that getting a job that you enjoy is difficult. Only a few (or maybe no one) are like that. You might have to keep looking all your life to find that position. But what if you don't try? Only regret will remain. You'll keep thinking "what if I did this...." or "what if I quit and challenged this...". I don't wanna be like that.

Anyway the reason I'm writting this is to remind myself that I have to notice my company this week. This week. I am 100% sure for my decision but I don't have the courage to tell my boss... I'm not like this usually but telling your boss that you want to quit is.... difficult, pressure. Especially when your boss did a lot for you. But in order to quit by the end of March, I have to say it. Please everyone wish me luck...

I'll update and tell you how it went next time.
For those of you wondering what am I gonna do after quitting, I'll tell you when I know that for sure. It's not like I'm not thinking anything and leaving my job. I do have some ideas and plans in my mind.

すごく久しぶりに書く気がする。
新年に入ってから新しい生活になったので、ちょっとご無沙汰してました。
新しい生活といっても仕事を辞めたわけじゃないので。
でもそろそろ本気で辞めることを会社に言おうと思います。前に一度このことについてブログ書いたことあるけど、ついにその時期が来たようです。

先週、会社のイントラで”当社がある雑誌で就職ランキング第４位、男性新卒者では第１位にランクイン”というニュースが入ってきた。人事部によると新卒応募者数は去年の3倍だという。正直驚いた。

辞めたい気持ちは本物だが、辞めたくない理由が一つだけある。それは福利厚生がとても良いこと。まぁ事業部や部署によるんだけど、私の場合、有給が好きな時にいつでもとれる（今月なんか2回も休んだ）、残業はほとんどないし、あったとしても残業代が必ずつく。GW、夏休み、冬休みが長期である（今年はそれぞれ９か１０日間ある）。こんな日本企業ほとんどないだろう。親にも「こんないい会社で働いて、他では働けないよ」って言われた。確かにもったいないかもしれない。でも面白くない。いやとかできないとかじゃなくて、面白くない。仕事に対するやる気が大きかった分、全く興味のない部署に配属されて余計やる気を無くした。やめる理由は後悔しくないから。面白くないまま続けて後で「もし辞めて～してたらどうなっただろう」とか「～やっとけばよかった」って絶対思うと思う。それなら試してみてだめだったらだめでいい。ただやらなくて後悔だけはしたくない。

そんなことはともかく、ここにこの事について書いたのは、自分に言い聞かせるため。辞める決意は本気なのだが、なかなか辞めることが言い出せない。勇気がない。普段はなんでも言えるのだが、"辞める"となると言い出せない。特に大変お世話になった上司に言うのが辛い。でも何が何でも今週中に言わなきゃ。でないと自分が希望する時期に辞められなくなると思うから。有言実行。ここで宣言したら言わなきゃいけないでしょう。

次回、どうなったか報告します。

Ocean and the Sky

I went to Miyako Island (one of the Island in Okinawa) on a New Years!

The ocean was one of the most beautiful ocean I've ever seen. I went with my family so wasn't romantic at all but wish to visit with my love someday!

The trip was fun but more than that, I enjoyed spending time with my family.
Once you're grown up, you spend less time together with your falmily, right? My dad is a very busy man, I'm not home most of the time (work and private), my sis is busy with school, studying and club activity... I think my mom was enjoying this trip the most.
I probably won't be able to spend time with my family from now on so will treasure those time we can be together. Family is forever a family, whether you like it or not. Appreciate before you regret.

P.S. Enjoy the pictures I took in Miyako Island!! beautiful, ne?

Miyako Island Part Ⅱ.