So yes, I did tell my boss about leaving my job.
Feb, 5th, Monday moring, my boss (my closest boss) called me to talk. First I didn't know how to start so he was speaking most of the part. After a while I thought I have to say it so I started..."You know I've been thinking about my job, that I told you I'm not enjoying and want to change the position..." I've discussed and told my feelings few month ago. I told everything that I was thinking, all my passion, my decision. He listened to me and didn't stop me. He is a really understanding person, he always thinks about me first than about the company. "If the next step is best for you, I'll encourage you for what you've chosen." he also said "don't worry about the company. You can leave whenever you need to." because I said I feel bad that I'm leaving in the most busiest time of the year and also for everything he've done to me. He was different from other people. Never look down on me, explained to me in easy words so that I can understand even he was so busy. First step, cleared.
Next step. Feb, 7th. I had an interview with my manager in our accounting group. I told my feelings again. He's reaction was different. " I still want you to rethink and stay in our company. The best is to stay here but if you don't want to, I can talk to the HR and maybe we can change your position. Please think about it."
Third Step. Feb, 15th. My manager called me again and told me that bigger boss in Accounting department wants to talk with me. It's a bit complicated but I belong to 2 groups. I'm in accounting in Applied System Group but also belong to Head Accounting Department which is in the head office. So that means I have to persuade people in 2 different groups. So this time was interview with the Top 2 of the whole Accounting Department. He's in quite a high rank so made me very nervous. Plus, he has this big eye balls that make me more nervous. Anyway, in the first half of the interview, he was speaking most of it trying to make me pursuade from leaving. He said few things that made me a bit waver (like they might be able to change position) but maybe is maybe, no gaurantees. At the end, I think I won the fight. he seemed like he didn't know what to say because my will was so strong. But because of the situation he couldn't say "Ok, we will understand", so he just said " I understand your feelings but think again and hope you'll change your mind."
Forth Step. Feb, 16th. I was called from the same boss I talked yesterday and took me to HR manager's room. So now the boss of the HR. He didn't ask me like why I want to quit or something like that. He was there to ask how he can stop me from leaving the company. They offered me a great deal. He said he can put me into International Sales or Advertising group which I wanted to get in before. Not sure which position since there're many but definatley has something to do with internationally or PR. He said " we don't want to lose you for both of our benifits. We do have position that you might be interested. Will you stay if we give you the position that you want?" I didn't know what to say. then, he said "I'm not asking you to decide right now so think about it over this weekend and let me know on Monday, ok?"
Now this made me confused. This was the position I've always wanted, not anyone can get it. Doing international sales or PR for a big company must be very interesting, since the business is in a larger scale. As far as the career wise, staying in the company is a lot wiser. This is an ultimate decision. Choose my career or love? Which ever decision I make, I'm sure I won't regret. I just need to think what I want to do now. Not thinking like "if I choose this I will lose this" or " what if I ...." I had a weekend to think and decide.
Listen to your heart, Mayu... and I know what I want. I've already made up my mind. I guess I've already chosen the answer from the beginning. just that sometimes you need someone to agree with you and make you feel more confident, you know?
Thanks to my friends who gave me good advise.
